Life is extremely difficult these days.  One minute I'm crying, the next screaming.  Cannot be consoled, cajoled or any other plesantries. 

Do not understand how I became the outsider, the enemy, how did we get here?

Being lied to, left out of his life, not telling me anything he is going through, like I would not understand or care.  I have never lied to my husband, never left him out of the loop, right down to which roads I drove down to get home.  Guess he needed to know to avoid being seen!!!

Tired of always being the responsible parent, would like to runaway from it all as well!!!  Even our son realizes how selfish his father is.  He told his friends his dad is never around when he needs him, his dad only calls or comes around when he does not have anyone else to be with or entertain him.  Sad his only child sees him for what he is.

No need to respond, just venting.  Sure some have been here before and may not want to revisit, don't blame you.  Can't wait for the whole thing to be over, it hurts so bad and there is no relief!!!!